most embarrassing kintype ever. eddsworld character. fucking awful. tord eddsworld. even worse. dear fucking lord. imagine being a massively woobified white boy with roughly the same amount of development as a disney twist villain. couldn't be me.

for starters, i wasnt just like that in "the end" for no reason. who is that guy? not me. okay, well, it was me. but im so embarrassed by that fact that i try to act like it wasn't. even though, yeah, it kinda wasn't. but also it was.

it's complicated.

yes, i ruined the relationships between me and my best friends over a robot. but it wasn't just because of the robot. i won't waste time telling my sob story here. if you've read any fanfiction giving me a tragic backstory, you already get the gist of it. to make a long fuckin story short, i was found on the side of a road by a red army squadron, was conditioned into doing some awful shit by my adoptive father, lived long enough to rise through the ranks and become "the red leader" (albeit my father still pulled all of the strings), yadda yadda yadda. boo hoo.

there is a lot of self-loathing to be had regarding how i used to act in my canon before i snapped out of my generational abuse-induced haze. it's embarrassing to me. not even distressing. it's just hard for me to watch "the end" without thinking to myself "what the fuck was wrong with me" every time i do something fucked up. it's in this way where i have almost no sympathy for myself, which kinda sucks when the entire sub-fandom centered around you does.

god. anyway communism isn't so bad. big anime boobs. im the funny cat hair guy point and laugh right now.